WHEN WE LOSE SOMEONE VERY CLOSE,ITS DIFFICULT TO FORGET THEM .SOME EVEN THINK ITS END OF THEIR LIFE,BUT IT DOES’T END THERE. INFACT EVERYONE HAS LOST ONE AMONG THEIR LOVED ONES…………..
My watch was displaying time 4.15 November 6th-2006 it was a Monday evening I was just out of my chemistry class (2ND PU), heading towards mess to have a cup of coffee. We were discussing about the upcoming preboard exams.I had a look around something was wrong with me ,my mind wasn’t certainly clear.Then suddenly my mind filled up with my aunt’s face,she was not well in the past month.Immediately i skipped the sports session, Praying to god for the best i walked towards telephone booth. I rang to my home-no one received,then to my uncle,,,… he was in deep pain he didn’t react to me and hung up the phone.I came to know that something is wrong,then I rang to my dad he confirmed me that she is no more.Suddenly I got call from my grandma and grandpa telling seriously that don’t come now here. As they got to know that i got the information which they eventually wanted to hide from me as i could not be able back to normal life after hearing this news .They informed she left us early in the morning and the death ceremony was over.I was very deeply attached to my aunt in the recent past.After hearing the news my mind turned completely blank ,tears started to roll down.I went towards hostel and opened the room.I got over my bed trying in controlling my emotions, but failed to control myself .
I tried to recollect those precious moments spent with her.She was more than a companion to me,a friend,and a mentor to me in every walks of my life. She had taught me everything in life,how to live and live life with high thoughts. She was one of the most humorous characters i have seen in my life. She was a mentor to all of our family members including my mom,uncle, to everyone. She wanted everyone to live happily and with the right spirit of life.
Most precious moments spent with her was in St john hospital kormangla bangalore(2005-april),she was ill and getting treatment for the same. Eventhough she was ill she used to smile 24hrs,cracking jokes throught the day. No tv,no friends nothing with a empty room with my aunt and a taperecoreder with a single cassete of shankarabharanam(the film she had seen around 25times ).After my 10th board exams i have come directly here despite enjoying my holidays in birur,as being here with my aunt and serving her was something special.
Daily my sister,my mom,uncle,dad and our relatives used to visit the hospital. But at the end of the day only me and my aunt. She used tell me stories,jokes and practical aspects of life.We had a routine of regular walk in the morning and followed by doctor check ups . The remaining part of the day was just to spend time in hospital.
Nurse treating my aunt was not knowing that we too speak tamil. She use to regret the job of being nurse and used to show the anger towards patients in tamil,and smiling as though she is conveying something good. Two days went the same continued , my aunt has ordered me to keep quiet and not to react to nurse . The next morning when we came for regular checkup as usual and we started to conversation in tamil and nurse heard that got astonished and with a great sigh of anxiety and fear asked loudly “aunty you know tamil”??????
She came towards us and she apologised to my aunt for whatever happened.(my aunt was one who wanted to teach lessons to others practically as she was a teacher in earlier days of her life )
We used to spend time by roaming the whole campus of St john hospital,although being in hospital is very tough.My aunt had made me to laugh whole day by imitating her past stories of her school and childhood days.She wanted everyone to be happy throughout the life no matter what happens.
The common thing about the persons who are fat is they compare themselves to others surrounding them.The same was with my aunt ,she wanted to know how she look. If I used to tease that in the recent days you have been very fat,only one answer i got from her was-“ i resembled bhavya(kannada actress) in nee barade kadambari (starring vishuvardan-she was a great fan of him) in the past. Nowadays i have become little fat that’s all”!!!!
But being in hospital was irritating to her,although she never used to express that.She had a single dream in mind,that her daughter want to become a big lawyer as her husband was.She was willing to help others although she knows that would put her in trouble(many have done that still her attitude didn’t altered).After the treatment in the hospital she lived with us till nov5th 2006, ……………………………………………,,,,time was 6.10,my companions came and woke me up and they had come to know that my aunt is no more and they wanted me to come out of that,they tried to convince me.Then I got dressed and went straight to my regular maths class at 6.30(I remembered the words of my aunt whatever happens life has to move on).
From that day I see my aunt in people who make me laugh !!!!!!!!!and in myself sometimes only sometimes!!…………When I do make someone laugh.
MISS My Aunt(dodamma) still now the name “manjula” fetches back memories of her.
“What ever happens life has to move on ”
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